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I'm currently in college. I am interested in doing science research and luckily enough, my school provides students opportunities to work in a lab doing research just as a course/project type of thing, or, work in someone's lab in the summer. Now, I've always been wanting to do something like this for a very, very, long time. However, my grades in my earlier years sucked terribly (ie. I failed a lot of courses; got a lot of C's). This made it difficult since a lot of these positions were pretty competitive and so having a 1.7 - 2.3 GPA doesn't fair too well. 

ANY WAY I FINALLY WORKED MY ASS OFF and magically made my GPA less shitty! I then spent this past year begging profs to let me in their lab. However, all of them were always full, didn't think I met the requirements, or had already committed to another undergraduate student. I basically then spent the entire summer lamenting. It was a great summer, but, I don't think I enjoyed it fully just because that nagging feeling of "Lab position...lab position" was in the back of my brain. 

Now, why it meant so much to me was, I've always postponed my graduation for a year. I planned for this to happen. I could have graduated in five years but I was like SCREW IT LET ME FIND A POSITION AND TAKE 6 YEARS CAUSE WHY NOT. 

But you know, with September approaching, things running dry, I was getting seriously, really, really bummed. 

THEN FINALLY. BY SOME OTHER MAGICAL MAGIC I GET SOMEONE TO BE INTERESTED IN ME. AND BY OTHER MAGICAL THINGS THEY TOOK ME IN (YUUUUUUUUS). And I was like SHIT MAN, FINALLY, AFTER 5 YEARS OF UTTER STRUGGLE SOMEONE HAS TAKEN A GAMBLE ON ME AND HOPEFULLY I WON'T BE A CHUMP. 

Now here's the kicker. I am required to take safety courses for it. However, they are ALL FULL/NOT AVAILABLE UNTIL OCTOBER, HAHAHAHA. Not to mention, one of them is a direct conflict with a midterm I have, and I don't know if I can move that! So I might even have to wait until November! I basically can't do shit in a lab because they think I will pour chemicals down my eyeballs or unleash an onslaught of virulent pathogens. 1-2 months might not seem bad...but...that's already 1/3-1/2 a semester. Fuck. 

SO THIS IS WHY I'M REALLY...JUST...GAWD. BASICALLY I FINALLY REACHED MY GOAL TO ONLY HAVE IT THROTTLED BY SOME BEDAMNED WHMIS COURSE :'(

And of course NO OTHER SAFETY COURSES FROM OTHER INFERIOR INSTITUTIONS WILL BE ACCEPTED. CAUSE WE'RE BEING BUTTS (but no, it actually makes sense since I assume it's catered to my school). BUT IF YOU ARE A FUCKING RESEARCH BASED INSTITUTE, YOU WOULD THINK YOU WOULD HAVE COURSES AVAILABLE MORE OFTEN. NOT ONCE EVERY 1-2 MONTHS. SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK. 

I hate everything. 
I'm not particularly looking for any advice...just needed a place to kind of let this go. If anyone has any stories or thoughts on this, I'd be willing to hear them as well. Thanks. 

My family has fostered children for many years. I never grew particularly attached to the kids only because at the time my family had started fostering, I was a kid myself. If anything, I found a lot of them to be kind of a nuisance. As I grew older, however, I didn't mind so much. I was often in school so I avoided interacting with a lot of them. I don't hate them or love them...I guess it's just that same feeling you might have towards a friend's baby/kid.

There was one kid that came to our home when she was around 1 years old (give or take a few months). She stayed with us until she was about 3 years old, but she ended up moving away. I think my Mom had brought up some complaints to her social worker, but the social worker took it the wrong way (eg. a lot of school teachers often treated my Mom unfairly, the girl got sick a LOT when she began school, etc.) It caused a few problems and my Mom debated about having her transferred to another home, but changed her mind. At that point, the social worker didn't care and just decided to transfer her to the same foster home where her sibling was being looked after. That family ended up moving due to a job relocation. It's been roughly a year since she's left our home.

I don't know, but every time I think about it I do feel a little sad. I was looking through some photos just now and found some of her, and I started crying. I don't feel like she went to a good home (that foster parent always accused my Mom of doing weird shit). But the social worker was always very stubborn and there wasn't much we could do. I was hoping she would get put up for adoption or something, but I think something prevented that from happening (I'm not really clear of the details).

I usually don't connect to a lot of the kids that come in and out of our house, but I guess I did with this one kid. She was a bit bratty (she was two years old :P) but always pretty cute. I remember even teaching her the Dragonborn call from Skyrim, too, haha; "FUS RO DAAAAAAAH!". I dunno. I think it's really sad just because she spent a lot of her early developmental stages here with us, so we kind of watched her learn how to walk/run more, talk, get potty trained, etc. While we've had kids stay with us longer, I think the fact that (i) she was a baby when she came to us, and (ii) I'm much older and more capable of understanding that "parental love", it's made this a lot sadder for me.

I think a part of me feels like we almost failed her? I just feel really sad when I think about it. I don't think it really hit me how much she had an impact on our lives until I saw some of the photos. I just hope her childhood isn't too broken from transferring between homes and that she's okay where's she's at. I hope she grows up to be an okay person, too. I'm sorry :(

I signed up for this art class at my school. The thing I find annoying is receiving critique when I'm NOT looking for it. Generally I'd be open and ask someone, "What do you think". But the thing is, I'm trying to pack up and finish this work last minute (have it framed and what not) and my Mom goes on starring at it and asks, "Hey, where's the eye?" (it's of an insect). That only implies that the eye cannot be seen (I already knew that but I don't know how to fix it nor have time to). 

I just find it really annoying because I SHOULD JUST BE OFF TO BED BUT NOW I'M JUST ANNOYED that she does that all the time. I don't want any critique WHEN I'M ABOUT TO GO TO BED. And I tell her that it's annoying for her to do that because as the person who created it, you can't help but go back and look at what they mean. But I obviously have squat time to fix it and what not. 

And then I tried explaining to her that I would appreciate it if she doesn't bring up these things last minute, especially when hours before she was saying I should get enough sleep for my trip. Then she thinks I'm being overly sensitive and I just want to 'silence her'. Well maybe if you asked me where the eye was like 7 hours ago I'd be okay with it. Then I just feel stressed out and can't go to bed. 

I care deeply and love my Mom very much, but she always does this before we go to bed (it's happened with my sibling as well). I just don't think she understands...it's not the time. Sigh. Ah well. 
Hey guys, 

I was just wondering if any of you have any interesting Zelda themed gifts. I'm having a bit of trouble picking something out for someone. They specifically like Majora's Mask, and as awesome as I think it would be to get them a mask replica, I don't have few hundred dollars to fork over...!

They don't have much collectible stuff. I know they own the Historia, and three CD's (Theophany's CD Album (Time's end), The 25th Anniversary Special Orchestra CD, and the Ocarina of Time Hyrule Symphony CD). 

Are there any other interesting CD's out there? I couldn't find any. I know they don't like novelty T-shirts, apparel, or jewellery or anything like that either. I'm looking to spend no more than $50. 

Thanks!
I've tried changing this multiple times, but it never shows up. I realized it likely has to do with the fact I have to submit this into the little journal "portal" thing. There is no real purpose to this entry.

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